N°1383 - I'll Fix It ♪

♪ With you something's different
I know that I'm broken, I'll fix it
'Cause I'd be a fool if I didn't
So darling, don't worry, I'll fix it, I'll fix it 

Hair :
Stealthic - Ivy
@ Kustom9 

Head :
LeLutka Bento Head-CHLOE

Skin :
*YS&YS* Sey&Mey Skin Applier for Lelutka -  Powder Pack - March 2017

Outfit :
EVANI - Jenny

Boots :
Momento. Combat flight boots

I was listening to this song, and I thought "wow I can really relate to this song", and it made me sad in a way. I realized I've spent the most of my life trying to "fix" myself, so that others would care about me, accept me, like me. I'm sure I'm not the only one feeling like that, and I can tell you, it's pretty exhausting to constantly fixing yourself. To constantly think something is wrong with you. 
I've spent the most of my life walking on eggshells, trying to please everyone around me, listening to what people said I should do and shouldn't do. I've spent the most of my life considering every move, every action, based on how people would like it or not. That's pretty exhausting too. Whenever I fall, I've focused on the people judging me, instead of the people trying to hold me up. I had surrounded myself with people who made me feel bad about everything I did or didn't do.
I just turned 30 years old, and I'm so done feeling like everything I do and say is wrong, I'm tired of always asking myself if what I'm doing is accepted by others. I can't please everyone, but I can start focusing on the people around me, who is actually there for me, for every high and low, who accepts me for the mess I am at times, and who loves me for who I am. 
Instead of fixing myself, I should accept myself, and be grateful for the people around me who already have accepted me as I am.